Apart from being pissed off I can't make up decent post titles... my mind is really messed up at the moment.

I'm not sure what to think, who to fell attracted to, what I should say, who I should be looking to cuddle up to. I'm so tired, confused and messed up at the moment.

I saw Lookie off at the airport earlier. I felt so sad. And I do again now, writing this. She's been a really good friend and such a nice person for so long. But she's moving out to Australia permanently now. In fact, she'll be on the plane as I write this.

Hugging and saying goodbye to her was the first time I've cried in a very long time. I'm really really going to miss her. Probably more than she realises.

And then theres this whole thing I can't talk about on my blog "yet". But that's also making me feel yukky.

So right now, I shall go to bed wanting to lie in someones arms with a sholder to cry on. I've had an exhausting day and I want to vent.

There is at least some consillation in that the taxi driver charged me £8 from central station to my house rather than £8.05. He doesn't realise how much that meant to me today.