I used to be a nice person. But recently, I've been acting like a child, causing problems, offending people, being a right twat, really.

I don't know totally why, but its been like this for a while. The past couple of weeks, I've really been thinking a lot. I've realised that I'm bored of computers and Computer Science.

Before University, computers where my hobby. They're now my hobby, job and degree and its all too much. They're not fun anymore.

I think its this bordom in life that's slowly made me drop my politeness and thoughtfullness. Whether it is or not, I'm not particularly bothered.

What does matter is that I want to put things right again, get back on track and get the old me back.

One of the reasons for this spate of crap from me, I'm guessing, is the level of alcohol I drink. When I drink less over the holidays, it scares me that I crave a pint even now and again.

So that's gone, as a starter. With my mind sober all the time, I can concentrate on working out whats changing me and put a stop to it.

I'm also really, warm heartedly, sorry for all the offence I have caused. If I were to list everyone I've pissed off, the list would be too long. But at the recent ievent;

I'm sorry Dan, the insults to PA and to your job were based on rubbish from this trip I'm on at the moment. Please don't take it personally, I do think you're doing a fantastic job, arguably the best things PA's had in its recent years.

Andrew, apologies to you too, being an annoying cunt in the car, being generally drunk and disorderly and especially pissing you off with the ketchup stunt. I'm not impressed with it at all.

Clare, I'm sorry to you too about the conversation we had about a certain little lady. Please understand aswell that I'm not really speaking my mind at the moment.

And to everyone in general, apologies for being the temorary -me-.