It's amazing how things can go from being so good to everything suddently looming over your shoulders.

Over the past 48 hours two things have gotten to me. The first is that I'm working most of my waking time to pay to live in my flat. And the only purpose to living in this flat is so that I'm in commutable distance to my job. If that isn't a paradox that upsets you, what is?!

The second is I have, especially tonight, a burning desire for love. I've got so much affection to give and it's the only major thing missing from my life at the moment. And that sounds bloody sad. But the reasoning the second thing that's getting to me so much is that I want to use the Meet Matt Chapman thing as a way to find new people. I don't intend to use it to find a girlfriend at all but...

What worries me is that the project will take up all the little spare time I have (escallating problem 1) and reducing the chances of meeting someone I can "fall in love with" (escallating problem 2).

This all makes sense to a "Matt's been out on a Friday night" mind. I wonder how I'll feel about those two things tomorrow.