I'm feeling really ill this evening. I had to have a sleep this afternoon because I had absolutely exhausted myself by about 3pm. I remembered back to the school days, feeling ill and having a day off, I would watch television. I remembered the interesting, informative programs as well as good films, etc.

So I decided to watch TV tonight. And I'm SO glad that I don't generally watch it. I spent an hour watching a documentary on the power industry.

It was basically a scenario of what we could see in 2010. It setup a scene of a bleak winter, where demand for power was the highest seen in years. Whilst the power grid was struggling to keep up with this demand, terrorism in Russia caused the generated power to drop very low, thus plunging the south east into one huge blackout.

It basically highlighted the problem that because of the privatised power industry, the companies producing the power are trying to have really cheap power. Then the companies which buy this wholesale power and deliver it to consumers are selling power at the cheapest ever this year.

Because of this, there is no money to invest in the future. We're taking power for granted, we rely on it far too much and noone cares about it's future. It's such a shame and it really upsets me to live in this mad world.

I just don't understand why we have to have all this red tape, all this stupid greed for money. Why can't people put their lives and futures before their income?!

In the next decade, apparantly around 8 power stations will reach the end of their lives and have to be taken out of service. There are plans to build only 1. There are no plans to produce nuclear power because us as public are scared!.

Noone cares about anyone but themselves it seems. Sizewell, which is in viewing distance along the Suffolk coast from where I live, had plans to build another nuclear reactor. I think it was campaigners that manged to stop those plans. If you ask me, when you get used to them, those huge golfball thing's aren't all that bad. I'd rather have that miniscule blob on the horizon and that negligable safety risk than to have no electricity.

I then went to watch the news, as this program finished. And it's all bad news. It's so bleak. IT IS SO DEPRESSING. It makes me mad that it's not possible to look at the media or the internet these days without being pumped full of stories of terror, threat, fear and paranoia.

It's scarey. Why is the UK population being forced to follow in the US's footsteps?! I've noticed in just the last year that the approach the media takes on stories these days is to generate that feeling of fear in the public. I for one don't want it. I don't appreciate it and it makes me want to find some less stressful and threatening country to live in!

I can see it becoming harder and harder to be patriotic in England. *sigh*.