It's really strange recently. I think I said a while back, at the end of last month, that I had spent some time with people off my course, and was really enjoying it. As much as I love the friends I have at Uni, who I'm about most of the time, it was so refreshing to spend time with new people.

I am feeling, this evening, that I'm quite selfish. I would like to think I'm a kind person, thoughtful and sensitive. But I'm always trying to get one step further, always trying to be one bit better than I used to be. I'm competative with myself. And believe me, that bodes well for some interesting internal conversations.

But yeah, it's annoying. The friends I have in life, the money I have, the jobs I do, the kind comments I get from people, the good times and the amazing memories. They're never enough. Even though I cherish them all, and I'm grateful for everything, however small, that anyone has ever done for me.

I think I have a list of targets which I aim to hit in my life. A recent one was to get properly working for the students union, and through work on the Ents website, I've completed that. The thing that worries me is now I have a bigger target.

I want a girlfriend. This is no plea for any woman who reads this blog (what a nice thought that is) to ask me out... I just mean that I miss my old girlfriend, Naomi. I miss the special connection it brought between the two of us, the amazing friendship. Would Erin and Laura like to come back home from travelling, Lookie from Australia and all the other female friends I have from their respective Unis. I miss the female contact, your way of thinking and by god, you're all so attractive.

I think I'm missing Southampton, mostly, too. I like it at Uni, the life's great, the people are wonderful. I think the main problem is that I spent too much time with everyone. But anyhow, that's by the by, it's another story. I'm more interested in my birthday, which is now just 3 days away.

I'm -so- looking forward to Julian and Big Richard meeting a friend of mine from home called Nick, who's openly gay. Julian and Richard will be horrified. I can't wait. :D

I need another beer, and to empty my bladder.... So I'll stop rambling.